Once in a blue moon

  Back from Shanghai yesterday, my room was same mass as the time i left. Mum was not home for a week, nobody cleaned my room.

  Couldn't sleep in such mass place, cleaned on my own in the afternoon. Turned on my CD player, musics and films are always make me feel good.

  Broken one CD when changing, " Seal", one of my favourite. Trying to use super glub to repair it, realized I could not. Even though how careful I doing the repair, it was broken, wouldn't be same as before. That's the fate. I can't have it, it's not blong to me at all.

  Got another bunch of lavender -- He bought to me on Sunday. Was surprised and happy to see it. He knows, my favourite flower.... I love them, and I love him.

  Saw Wayn today -- my friend since high school. That was good to see some old friend, especially when I felt helpless and depress. We were talking about the interview this afternoon which was absolutely disaster for me. The first time I faced to the topic -- how cruel the real society is. Although I did prepare for that, but didn't realize the things is toooo different from what i was thinking, tooooo far. Meanwhile, I realized i was not mature enough eventhough everytime i emphasized to others I m 24. AGE DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING. Now I konw that.

  My man said i should be stronger. Everyone said the same thing. Before I didn't want to face to that, I escaped from every realistic things, I didn't like those things which made me felt sooo cruel. Now, i know i have to face. The world is not just only me!!!

  Anyway, I believe i will be all right, I won't always be the weak one. After I got my direction, I will be ok!!!

  Bought four CDs today -- Blue Jazz. Will make me to be carlm down...

  Heavy raining since last night, got thunder and lightening as well. Entered my driving lesson during the raining, then was hemed in one little room -- too heavy raining outside, couldn't back home at that time.  I don't like raining day, espacially with thunder and lightening.

  Remember the day in Winchester was a raining day. Although don't like the weather, still happy. I was there with him. We bought a big umbrella in JD SPORT.  Huge one that could cover both of us.

                       The cathedral

                       Backyard of cathedral

                                Commercial road

                      tall him and short me

   He is a good photographer!!!! I like all of his pictures. Meanwhile, I do really miss him!!!

  Suddenly feel moody!!! It was all right at first today, till the night got something made me moody.

  Don't want to upset him, and don't want him to worry about me, so I choose offline and carry on my book. Everytime when I m not happy, just keep silence, till the time i feel ok.

  Anyway, Will be ok tomorrow!!

  He came to my city yesterday, we spent two days together. It was nice to spend time with him, I m happy.

  Went to KTV yesterday, and sang my favourite song to him -- The lavander. I just told him the story, but didn't tell him the reason I like the song. People are dreaming of something, then always do their best to get their goal. The way they were loving each other were totally made me shocked.

  He didn't know everytime when I sang the song, I was crying, that's because the song was always made me thinking about him. Yes, I missed him a lot!!!

   Went to my favourite place together,the first time I wanted to know all of the things about my country, cause he's interested in it.

   I was smile when he said it was nice to spending time with me in there. I was happy to be there with him as well-- might be he didn't know. I am not such person who is easily to tell people my feeling.

  Anyway, we are in the same country now. We could be together whenever we want.

  I feel everything about us are like a dream. I m in the dream with him, everything is sooo perfect, and we are happy to with each other. I was afraid sometimes, I scared it was just a dream, then one day I have to wake up from the dream... 

  He is coming tomorrow. I am happy to see him. :)

  Nothing to do these days, just waiting -- getting use to waiting, then turning to be passive when i m doing all the things.

  That's nice to see some old friends, which I haven't seen for ages. I like to listen people talking with me, just listening, and they are talking. I'd like to know what people's thinking and their opinion. Plus the things I past, then I will be mature.

  Oh, yes, I am not matur enough, I am still a little girl even how old am I....

  Shopping today -- a bunch of lavender, 95 RMB per bunch -- tooo expansive!!!!!!  That's my favorite flower, one of the reason is the purple color, ( I like purple, make me feel calm); another reason is because he's from the country of lavender.

  Got this blog several weeks ago, because of my poor French and lazy habite, couldn't do it very well.

  Anyway, I just want to write down all of my memeries, so that I could recall them any time in any where. Because, I don't want to forget those "Beau Reve"

MA MEMOIRE　

                  Ce n'était qu'un rêve,

                                              mais un beau rêve